Craziness that I'm apparently grateful for.

Crazy days. That's sums up my life for the last 3 months. I have had a really good semester. Only 2 weeks left! yikes. The semester has been SOOOO busy. I have actually been amazed at my ability to roll with the punches and keep on top of all the things I am doing. This semester, for the most part, I have felt like I have finally come into my own. I was actually being the student I've always known I could be.

But I don't deal well with change. It takes me a while to readjust.

So when I started dating someone in the beginning of October, I dropped a ball or two that I was juggling. And I picked them back up again after a couple of weeks. But it's the end of the semester and I am so stressed out I have no motivation or excitement for anything. Which drives me nuts.

For the most part, I did a really good job juggling everything. But I found, that as project deadlines came knocking this month, I started to drop the balls again. And I am now realizing that my spirituality has suffered. I'm so distracted by all that I have to do, that I can't focus on things. The most frustrating of which is my scriptures and saying prayers. I feel like I'm in a funk. I'm not doing anything terrible. But I'm also not where I want to be. And it's OK, I'll get back out of it. Life is about figuring out these kinds of things, like learning to have your spirit overcome your body, even in new situations. While I am struggling to do all I committed to at the beginning of the semester, before I was dating someone, I know that I can do this. Even when I really don't feel like I can, like on days like today.

With a 10-page paper looming over my head, due in 2 days, that I haven't really even started, I want to just crawl in a magic hole and rewind time, so that I didn't have a cold the whole of Thanksgiving week (Which was great, by the way. I loved being with my happy little family.) and then I could have gotten myself to do more homework and less sleeping. But you know what? That's life. And I am choosing to be a creator of my circumstances. I don't have to be a victim to things that happen to me. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. And so, with that in mind, I guess I will end this long over-due post, and get on to the stinking paper about Bach and Handel that I have....get to write.

Life is good. I truly can't complain. I am so blessed I don't even see it all. And when I stop to think about it, my heart swells with gratitude for all the love that I've been given and shown and for the life that He has lead me to have. I know it will only get better with him steering me.

So, I'm off to research dead composers! Hope you had a great Thanksgiving!

Joanna

Things I am doing

• LDC- Institute choir :4 hours a week of rehearsals and then personal practices and the performances are just about to start
• UVU Chamber Choir: 3 hrs/week and 2 concerts coming up
• Voice Lessons: 1 hr or more practicing a day + weekly master class and voice lesson
• Chamber Music class: 1credit, learn one song, perform 1 song in a concert in 2 weeks
• Astronomy 1040: 3cr class, I rarely go...But do ok on the tests.
• Biology 1010: 3cr, I have a great teacher.... Biology is just not my subject
• Music History part 1: 3cr This is the class with the huge paper, and one big fat final left
• French 1010: 4cr. I love this class. But I don't have enough time to really learn all the vocab.
• My job at the library:14 hrs a week.

Thats a total of

• 4 different things I memorize music for
• 3, 3 credit classes. 1, 4 cred class, and 3, 1 credit classes, and LDC, and an Institute class
• And my job
• And my calling. Which has a minimal time commitment, for which I am grateful for.

YEs. I am insane.