Oiy

It has been quite the week for me. I had quite the rollercoaster weekend. I was hating the bus ALOT. But then being spiritually fed and stake conference. I watched the CES fireside bymyself at home. Because I was going to go to a rehearsal for 2 hours at 8 and just wanted to relax. Well, just as I am about to leave to go to the rehearsal, I bend over and hit my eye on my dresser and cut my eyelid. OUCH! That's about all I said too. So I go to the freezer and grab my bag of frozen onions, and hold it to my eye, hoping to prevent a black eye. Well, it did. But I was bleeding. So, I get in the car with Natalie and I was stressed as it was, not to mention the injury, so I cried on the way to rehearsal and walked in with an icebag on my face. (I had exchanged the onions for ice.) So, I rehearse with a band-aid on my eyelid, which makes it hard to open. I had a good time, got some cheese cake at the end. Well, then it was off to bed to get up Monday morning early and work on my abortion presentation for my Ethics class. topic: is it ethical to restrict a woman's access to receive an abortion. I won't go into too much detail, but we said, yes it's ethical. We gave everyone in class cupcakes with little plastic babies in them. The best part of the presentation was when people started pulling out little babies from the cupcakes. the point of the cupcakes was, "You now have an unexpected baby in your life, what are you going to do about it?" The teacher laughed. I hope he gives us bonus points, because that seemed to be the only thing he liked about our presentation. oh well. Then I went to LDC and then work for 11 hours. Tuesday came and went, and my eye was healing rather well, but the edge of my eyelid started to hurt. I thought it was just irritation from putting neosporin on my cut so much. Not so. I have a sty on the edge of my left eyelid. basically an infection by the roots of your eyelashes. I've had them before, and there isn't really anything you can do about them. But at this point today, it's the worst one I've had. It is visually noticeable and my eye lid is all puffy. People have started to ask me about it. "Yes my eye is OK! no, it's not from the cut." Apparently I have unclean eye hygiene. It actually hurts quite a bit, and is bothering me immensely. But what can you do. I also have developed some kind of chest cough or bronchitis. Maybe from the terrible inversion we had, maybe not. I do not know. either way, I look at the heavens and wonder sometimes at the timing of things. I have a huge concert tomorrow night up in Salt Lake. I am see this as a perfect opportunity, to rely on the Lord. Somehow, he always finds a way to remind me how MUCH I need Him. I cannot get through a week without having some reason to plead for help from Him. I am utterly lost without Him. My dad came to give me a blessing tonight, to help calm my nerves over the fact that my body is rebelling against me and that I have a very long day ahead of me tomorrow. Well, anyway, He's there. He knows us and loves us. What a blessing. So, for now, the goal is to just remember that.